Global Women's Voices: Share Personal Stories

Sherry Wilkerson, United States

Submitted by: Sherry Wilkerson

First I'd like to say that I hate that women have had to go through these things and still do. As Children and adults. There isn't enough recovery programs out there like there should be. I'm an adult woman of alchol and sexual abuse. All by family members. This happened to me when I was just a child and married to get out of the abuse to only continue in more abuse. I have suffered this kind of abuse all my life and I'm now a 48 year old woman trying to survive in this world as a normal women who doesn't know where to even begin. I suffer in some way from all the abuse everyday of my life. Choices that others made for me and not for myself. I read selfhelp books like beauty for ashes from Joyce Meyers and yet my story has nevered been told. I could be one of the woman that have killed or buse others. I could be a woman of the street, yet I keep asking my God everyday to deliver me from my past. Where is there justice. I live in Lexington Ky and we need help groups for women of abuse. The way we are as adults are scares from our past that don't go away. We need help in understanding life as adults and how to get past these scars. I have been beaten as a child everyday until I ran away and got married. Only at fifteen and having to drop out of school to raise a baby. Still to this day I'm full of fears that I guess that are there from my past that I will never be worth nothing. I fear the Ged test, just thinking that I want pass it frightens me to death. If there was anyway that I could help women like myself view themselves different, so that that they could possibility have a chance of some normal living, I would do that. Most of us never can afford counseling, so they don't get hel, and they guess at what is right at that moment, causing them to end up in prison for killing their abuser. They spend their life in there continuing thinking that they are still the one at fault and being punished for their actions. How sorry. Remember most were just chilren when it all started. It makes me scared to think, that could be me. I was abused by a man, boys and even a woman. Using baby bottles on me and making me eat under the table if I wanted to eat. My desires for sex has never been ok for me. I don'tknow where to go, rather a womam or a man. Both scare me. I have tried them all just to find out that both can be just as bad. I wish that I could reach someone that cares so that I could really tell my story. Maybe one day. God bless all the women that hurt. Oh Lord guide them! Thanks for your hear.... Sherry

updated: 1/14/2006 6:39:00 PM